I am still buzzing from the experience created by @ycpa_mtl and @marcheasiasie. Because I never imagined I’d enjoy public speaking this much.
Since my childhood, I've always been told "树大招风”, which literally means a bigger tree would attract more wind. So I've always been that "shy kid" who'd not be the first one to raise her hand in class, who'd try to stand behind the crowd to not be picked on. I put myself in such a "protecting environment" to avoid being harmed, even noticed. What people forget to teach me was - it also means I'll miss out on all the wonderful opportunities and become the one that's left behind.
Those doubts still linger in my mind even today, so I was nervous before the panel started, afraid that I might make mistakes and people would think less of me. But I'm no longer that kid, I've gained so much self-awareness and worth in the past few years, I am now aware of this flaw in my character, and I know how to talk over that voice and be in control.
The key - is to be present.
Once I immersed myself in the moment, the sense of calm was carried out smoothly - I stopped being nervous.
And that's such a beautiful lesson to myself:
I now see with proof how far I’ve come—I noticed the strength I didn’t know I had, and the fears lost their grip a little. Every time I show up, I will become a better version of myself.
It’s motivating.
It’s nourishing.
And honestly, it’s so deeply satisfying.
Don't we all need that feeling from time to time?
